flood

flood the mind with everything so the hurt will have to go into hiding.
but you know it will be back soon again.

interview this saturday. oh please just let me get in, so i can roam the world. and leave all these behind and start afresh. cos i need this. cos i dread those.
my mind needs an escape. but i cant escape you.

weirdo

i thought i was weird, until i found you.

To be weird together.
But now i'm a weirdo myself.

good to see you get better.

counting

when you lose some thing, thats when you realize how important things were. it cannot be proven or emphasized enough... 

so the funny thing is.. its quite dumb. every time i put on these beads, i have this hope that it brings you closer, and that you're still around me. it makes me sad, but on the other hand, its like some horoscope spiritual object? i secretly hope that it creates a connection and with it around my wrist. i would have a higher chance of bumping into you... 

you might not want to see me.. because it brings pain. i wanna see you because you're that missing piece in my life that i have no idea what to cover it with.. pain it is, i can take it. Because the amount of pain i've dished out on you is incomparable to what i deserve now. 

Of course, i've found a deeper meaning to all these hurt. Our time just isnt right, and that this pain, will bring us further in life. Now is the time for us to focus back on what we've been losing out. Your degree, you future job. for me, is to learn to be independent again, basically just submerging myself in tons of books, anything and everything. Just getting things back on track, probably this is god's way of helping us getting ourselves back together, and maybe one day, when we are stronger and matured. We might have a better chance to create a happy ending to our love story.

i miss you silly bbpoo.

all the best to you and myself. 

Tudigong

day #32

Day #32

I still miss you like crazy, everything just doesn't seem to feel or want to be right...

You linger... 

I forgot how it all started Perhaps it all begin with a simple feeling But all of a sudden, I came to realise I had fallen for you Love is really just that simple Even if I fell into an abyss of darkness, it wont matter Cos I cant dictate between right and wrong Never have I regretted those days and nights I spent in this mad pursuit of love The obsessed one, yes thats me alright I love you I cant help myself Please say youll love me too

I love you I dont want to ever lose you I cant be any happier, as long as Im with you Ill do anything Although the world keeps changing Ill use my sincerity To keep this love simple as it is Even if I fell into an abyss of darkness, it wont matter Cos I cant dictate between right and wrong Never have I regretted those days and nights I spent in this mad pursuit of love The obsessed one, yes thats me alright

i wanna pour my heart out for you.
Is it really too late?
Are you reading this?

beautiful

learn to say this to your close one.
because the good you see in them is what matters and that's what you should feel in the first place.

the only regret is we cant grow together.

No amount of laughter and smiling can cover this. I can't hide this sadness at all... 我真的好想你