flood

flood the mind with everything so the hurt will have to go into hiding.
but you know it will be back soon again.

interview this saturday. oh please just let me get in, so i can roam the world. and leave all these behind and start afresh. cos i need this. cos i dread those.
my mind needs an escape. but i cant escape you.

weirdo

i thought i was weird, until i found you.

To be weird together.
But now i'm a weirdo myself.

good to see you get better.

counting

when you lose some thing, thats when you realize how important things were. it cannot be proven or emphasized enough... 

so the funny thing is.. its quite dumb. every time i put on these beads, i have this hope that it brings you closer, and that you're still around me. it makes me sad, but on the other hand, its like some horoscope spiritual object? i secretly hope that it creates a connection and with it around my wrist. i would have a higher chance of bumping into you... 

you might not want to see me.. because it brings pain. i wanna see you because you're that missing piece in my life that i have no idea what to cover it with.. pain it is, i can take it. Because the amount of pain i've dished out on you is incomparable to what i deserve now. 

Of course, i've found a deeper meaning to all these hurt. Our time just isnt right, and that this pain, will bring us further in life. Now is the time for us to focus back on what we've been losing out. Your degree, you future job. for me, is to learn to be independent again, basically just submerging myself in tons of books, anything and everything. Just getting things back on track, probably this is god's way of helping us getting ourselves back together, and maybe one day, when we are stronger and matured. We might have a better chance to create a happy ending to our love story.

i miss you silly bbpoo.

all the best to you and myself. 

Tudigong